I think it might be best to lay this out in chronological order.
When we last left off, I was still recovering from the realization that natural remedies are not enough to get my cycles working properly and that we need to move on to more powerful stuff - i.e. Clomid. I was resolute and called the OB right away to set up an appointment. The conversation went like this:
Me: Hello, Doctor R told me to come in when I am ready for some Clomid, so I would like to set up an appointment.
Receptionista: Hmm, your referral is only valid for 6 months so you will need to get your GP to refer you again.
Me: Ahh, but it has only been 5 months since I was referred, so that should not be necessary.
Receptionista: Oh, but you see, the next available appointment is a month from today, so technically it will be more than 6 months.
Me: So what you're saying is that I need to go this roundabout route even though the doctor has already said she will prescribe the Clomid, and even though I am calling within the 6 month window, and even though my cyles are so messed up that this will likely set me back 3 months before I ovulate next. That is a really stupid and inefficient way to go about things, don't you think?
Receptionista: Call when you have a referral. Goodbye.
So off I went to my GP to get an effing referral. I will probably be unable to get an OB appointment until September (more likely October). I will have to wait until the next cycle to start the Clomid. That next cycle could be... who knows when! (btw, I am on CD 41 with no O). This means I will pass another birthday, another holiday season, another calendar year, another FOREVER before anything happens. Let us commence the self-pity fest.
I am not sure what to do at this point. Here are some options I've been considering:
- Just forget about TTC. Stop charting, stop OPK'ing, maybe stop the non-stop baby dancing. Return to fitness/hobbies/social life mode.
- Go get some provera and end this anovulatory bitch of a cycle, and try naturally one more time after that. Last time I took provera it almost killed me, but it did result in my shortest cycle ever.
- Wait this baby out and hope that I will ovulate eventually. Not sure how likely a pregnancy would be to stick on a CD 60 or 70 ovulation, but we could give it a shot.