Friday, August 5, 2011


Time for a TTC update which, unfortunately, will probably be the last one for a while.

I think it might be best to lay this out in chronological order.

When we last left off, I was still recovering from the realization that natural remedies are not enough to get my cycles working properly and that we need to move on to more powerful stuff - i.e. Clomid. I was resolute and called the OB right away to set up an appointment. The conversation went like this:

Me: Hello, Doctor R told me to come in when I am ready for some Clomid, so I would like to set up an appointment.

Receptionista: Hmm, your referral is only valid for 6 months so you will need to get your GP to refer you again.

Me: Ahh, but it has only been 5 months since I was referred, so that should not be necessary.

Receptionista: Oh, but you see, the next available appointment is a month from today, so technically it will be more than 6 months.

Me: So what you're saying is that I need to go this roundabout route even though the doctor has already said she will prescribe the Clomid, and even though I am calling within the 6 month window, and even though my cyles are so messed up that this will likely set me back 3 months before I ovulate next. That is a really stupid and inefficient way to go about things, don't you think?

Receptionista: Call when you have a referral. Goodbye.

So off I went to my GP to get an effing referral. I will probably be unable to get an OB appointment until September (more likely October). I will have to wait until the next cycle to start the Clomid. That next cycle could be... who knows when! (btw, I am on CD 41 with no O). This means I will pass another birthday, another holiday season, another calendar year, another FOREVER before anything happens. Let us commence the self-pity fest.

I am not sure what to do at this point. Here are some options I've been considering:
  1. Just forget about TTC. Stop charting, stop OPK'ing, maybe stop the non-stop baby dancing. Return to fitness/hobbies/social life mode.
  2. Go get some provera and end this anovulatory bitch of a cycle, and try naturally one more time after that. Last time I took provera it almost killed me, but it did result in my shortest cycle ever.
  3. Wait this baby out and hope that I will ovulate eventually. Not sure how likely a pregnancy would be to stick on a CD 60 or 70 ovulation, but we could give it a shot.


  1. I was annavulatory for a long time and clomid screwed me up even more. I swear by acupuncture, lifestyle changes and holistic methods-including charting (which really explaings a lot!) I have seen a lot of success that way. Best of luck!

  2. I'm sorry about the referral craziness. That's incredibly annoying!

    Clomid was not for me. We tried it six times. Not only did I become a complete and utter snake on the stuff, but it also prolonged my cycle by three months. Not to say that it may not work for you, but haven't found many women who are fond of it.

    When we were told we had to take a three month break, I was devastated. To most people, three months doesn't seem like a big deal, but to people struggling with infertility, it's a lifetime. I spent those three months focusing on improving my relationship with my husband and enjoying each other. It was still on the back of my mind, but it was also a bit of a relief to "let it go" for a bit.

    Hang in there...

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  3. I say go for provera. I was having 40+ day cycles and somehow it actually made ovulation show up the cycle after and it ended in pregnancy. Mind you, it was a blighted ovum, but still... worth a shot despite the pain. Maybe.

  4. thanks y'all! Not surprisingly there doesn't seem to be a "right answer"... that's life.