48 days + 17 opk's = (hopefully) 1 ovulation
Wow, that math is a bit depressing, but I'm not going to complain!
I still need a few temps above the cover line to confirm, but I think we may have had an egg drop on CD 48 (or maybe 49). CM was super eggwhity, and then dropped off abruptly to sticky. There appeared to be a pre-O dip in temperature, although that could have been due to sleep deprivation. I got 4 hours sleep that night (sometimes I hate my job), which is more than the requisite for temping, but I find that personally my temps are very affected when I get less than 7 hours. Then there were what I think are positive OPK's. It's tough to tell. They were very dark, the darkest they have been this cycle, and then dropped off to definitely negative yesterday.
The top one is from Friday at 1pm, the bottom from Friday at 9pm. I am going to count the 9pm one as positive, mmmkay?
I really really really hope temps stay up tomorrow because that will be the final piece of the puzzle. We had excellent BDing in quantity and quality =), so if I did ovulate, we have a very good chance of conception.
How do I feel about this? Ugh, I don't know. I keep flip-flopping between being super excited and hopeful, and then very nervous, pessimistic, depressed. At this point I sort of expect this either not to work at all, or to end up in another miscarriage, and I don't want to build up my expectations only to have everything come crashing down. On the other hand, I feel like everything fell into place nicely and we did everything right.
I have tried to take my own advice posted on other people's blogs and just try to enjoy the idea that everything might work out, because 2 weeks of unsubstantiated happiness followed by disappointment is better than 2 weeks of unsubstantiated depression followed by disappointment. But shit, it is easier said than done! The mind plays evil games with us, doesn't it.